My Story

Surreal and dark times and how the creativity can help

05/05/2020
We are all living through surreal and dark times, please stay safe, keep things simple and look after the people around you.
This website is evolving but not in the direction I ever thought it would and, in many ways, is reflecting the changes in my life. Earlier this year I was told my cancer has reoccurred. The news hit me hard both physically and emotionally, changing my life’s priorities. I have found it almost impossible for define and frame a solution to the situation. After much reflection though I think I landed on how the news has affected me: I am now scared about dreaming about my future because I don’t know how long I have and how capable I will be. The illusion of my mortality and the material desires of my life have been truly shattered.

All through my life the creative process and photography has been a constant and now it has become even more important to me. I find the solace in the creative process and the ability to create and express myself somehow brings me peace. It has also allowed me to remember the good times: the wonderful places I have visited and amazing people I have met over my life. This in turn is starting to create a hope for my future that I may still have time to explore.

In parallel to my news has been the dark spectre of Covid-19 looming over the world. The virus has totally changed our stance in the world and will infect our daily living for a significant amount of time. Resource constraints have dictated government policy and forced us into physical isolation. This will create significant and unintended social, economic and health ripples to our society for a long time so I have tried to turn the gloom of Covid-19 into a positive and create a documentary style project showing my life in lock-in. It has made me think of how the things we leave behind in day to day life tell a story in themselves.

We are all living through surreal and dark times, please stay safe, keep things simple and look after the people around you. Any change event is difficult to cope with, but all change is a process with a start, middle and end, we will return back into the world and I hope, with more compassion for each other and for the world around us

My way forward has become very simple all I really have is today and this moment, my plans have to reflect this. I guess my photos and reflections on the creative process are the material legacy I would like to leave behind.